Journal entry #1

Shelleigh’s Journal

            There a lot of things that I wanted in my life, although I have had some there is still a lot that I want.  I have just turned 40 years old and I’m ready to start the second half of my life.  How?

            My dream has always been to do theatre.  But at my weight I will never be able to get the parts I want to play.  I need to lose my weight.  I say this over and over again but never do anything about it.  I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me.  No never mind, I know.  I’m lazy.

            I spend my days looking for my chance to go back to bed.  I always want to take a nap. 

            I wake up and get the boys off to school.  Then I sit down and eat breakfast and watch a show on Hulu.  Then I may lie down or shower and I may read or do dishes.  I just wander around the house until around 12:30 or 1:00 and then I take a nap.  Around 2pm I get up make lunch.  Then I go to the store if I have to and then I pick up the kids from school.  After that, it’s homework, clean up a little, and the rehearsal if it’s rehearsal night.  Later, around 10:50 pm, I pick Keith up.  Then I may read and go to bed.  That’s my day. 

            I hate it.  I’m sick of it.

            But how do I change it?

            That’s where I’m lost.  I need to change my thinking.

            When I get up in the morning, after I get up in the morning I need to exercise first thing.  All I need to do is my Julian Michael’s DVD and ride my bike.  Then I shower and get ready for my day.  After that I do an hour of chores.  I will take a 20 minute nap, to clear my head.  Then I will write for an hour.  I need to write 500 words a day.  I need to do the same thing for my jewelry.  I need to work on it for an hour a day too. 

            OK, scratch that.  Here’s the plan.  I have to think about as if I have three jobs. 

            My first job is to exercise.  This job I have to do every day.  I do it the first thing in the morning after I take Keith to work or once I get the boys up for school.

            The second is writing.  I work at this job Sun, Mon, Tue, and Wed.  I need to write 800 - 1000 words a day.

            The third is jewelry.  I do this Thurs, Fri, and Sat.  I need to make a least five of the same pieces each week and get ready to sale them.  I need to get my website up and running too.

            I also need to get my house organized and clean.  I need to do this because Keith is getting sick being in our house.

            I need to make the laundry room into my office and work area.  That means making sure that the laundry is always done and Pugsley’s mess is always cleaned up.  I need to clean my work area and have it set up so that I can just work.  This is my writing area too. 

            This is the plan.  I need to stick to it like these are jobs that I do and get paid for.  Someday they may. 

Construction

One morning in mid November we awoke to a huge leak in our living room.  It had been a particularly stormy and rainy November and the tiles on our roof had been blown up in the nigh'ts storm.  There was a stream of water pouring down on to our hardwood floor. 

We called insurance and they came out to make a claim. 

Well, it turns out that we are got a whole new roof.  They are currently fixing the ceiling in our living room.  It had that nasty popcorn crap and we got that scrapped off.  Now they are fixing the walls and then they will paint it any color we want.  Plus, because our hardwood floors were damaged they are going to fix them too.  The only problem with fixing the hardwood floors is that there are no seams in them.  They are continuous through out the house so to fix that one spot they will have to do all the floors through out the whole house.  Which makes me very excited.

Unfortunately, my house is a complete mess.  Our living room is in our dinning room and in the hallway. I have no place to go in my own house.  The only place to sit is in our bedroom.  So it is needless to say that I can't do much today.  Which is OK really as I'm not feeling well and I'm suppose to be resting.  But at the same time I'm pulling my hair out because everything is such a mess.  I can't walk down my hall without bumping into something.  With any luck it will just be another week and almost everything will be done. The floor is a whole different story.  When those get done we have to remove everything form the house and be out of our house for a week.  That will be exciting.  We are think that we should go and visit Keith's family in Utah but we'll see.  We haven't heard from the insurance company about the floors yet so that whole thing is still up in the air.  I know I shouldn't hold my breath but I really want my floors done.

So, it's going to be a lazy week for this lazy housewife.
  

Laryngitis

This past Monday I wasn't feeling well.  I didn't think very much about it.  We had just started tech week for Cinderella which we would open on Saturday so I thought it might be nerves.  I went to rehearsal and tried to take it easy but that didn't seem to help.  Saturday came and my voice was bad but I thought it was better than it had been. Opening night went really well.  I didn't have much of a voice and it gave out half way through my song but all in all it was a very good opening. 


Sunday, I woke up and I had absolutely no voice.  I tried to speak, nothing.  I drank 2 cups of 'throat coat' and the Mane Stage remedy 'Gypsy Cold' and 'Echninatia'.  Nothing helped.  I drank apple cider vinegar and honey and all I got was an upset stomach.  I had to talk my song and I could barely do that.  Even just saying my lines killed my throat.  I was embarransed for myself but I also felt bad for the audiance.  I feel that the audiance knows when an actor isn't up to par and it's distracting to them.  I was afraid I took away from the whole experience of the play.  I was also afraid that I let down my cast members and directors.  I hope they won't hold it against me for getting sick and not cast me in a lead role again.  Being able to trust your actors is a big part of casting a show.  Even though I had no voice I felt like it was a good show.  My director has ordered me on vocal rest which was no surprise.  I have rehearsals this week but I will just be listening not participating. 

Today my voice isn't that much better.  I can speak for a little while but it wornout fast.  If I have no voice by Wednseday I will go to the doc to see if they could give me anything to get through the next weekend. 

If there is anyone out there please pray for me.  I really need my voice back.

Shel