Journal entry #1

Shelleigh’s Journal

            There a lot of things that I wanted in my life, although I have had some there is still a lot that I want.  I have just turned 40 years old and I’m ready to start the second half of my life.  How?

            My dream has always been to do theatre.  But at my weight I will never be able to get the parts I want to play.  I need to lose my weight.  I say this over and over again but never do anything about it.  I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me.  No never mind, I know.  I’m lazy.

            I spend my days looking for my chance to go back to bed.  I always want to take a nap. 

            I wake up and get the boys off to school.  Then I sit down and eat breakfast and watch a show on Hulu.  Then I may lie down or shower and I may read or do dishes.  I just wander around the house until around 12:30 or 1:00 and then I take a nap.  Around 2pm I get up make lunch.  Then I go to the store if I have to and then I pick up the kids from school.  After that, it’s homework, clean up a little, and the rehearsal if it’s rehearsal night.  Later, around 10:50 pm, I pick Keith up.  Then I may read and go to bed.  That’s my day. 

            I hate it.  I’m sick of it.

            But how do I change it?

            That’s where I’m lost.  I need to change my thinking.

            When I get up in the morning, after I get up in the morning I need to exercise first thing.  All I need to do is my Julian Michael’s DVD and ride my bike.  Then I shower and get ready for my day.  After that I do an hour of chores.  I will take a 20 minute nap, to clear my head.  Then I will write for an hour.  I need to write 500 words a day.  I need to do the same thing for my jewelry.  I need to work on it for an hour a day too. 

            OK, scratch that.  Here’s the plan.  I have to think about as if I have three jobs. 

            My first job is to exercise.  This job I have to do every day.  I do it the first thing in the morning after I take Keith to work or once I get the boys up for school.

            The second is writing.  I work at this job Sun, Mon, Tue, and Wed.  I need to write 800 - 1000 words a day.

            The third is jewelry.  I do this Thurs, Fri, and Sat.  I need to make a least five of the same pieces each week and get ready to sale them.  I need to get my website up and running too.

            I also need to get my house organized and clean.  I need to do this because Keith is getting sick being in our house.

            I need to make the laundry room into my office and work area.  That means making sure that the laundry is always done and Pugsley’s mess is always cleaned up.  I need to clean my work area and have it set up so that I can just work.  This is my writing area too. 

            This is the plan.  I need to stick to it like these are jobs that I do and get paid for.  Someday they may.