Friday, July 22, 2011

lost in my mess

Today my husband came home and got very upset about the messy state of our house and how I'm not doing anything about it.  To be honest, although I hate his tantrums he has a right to be upset, our house is a mess and I don't really do anymore than I have to to fix it.

I hate the fact that I'm so lazy.  I know things that I need to do to fix it but I don't do them.

I am in a habit of relaxing in the morning.  I eat breakfast and watch a show.  Then I may do the dishes and clean up a little.  After that it's time for a nap.  Then I spend time on the Internet, reading, or daydreaming.  I know this is laziness I have the butt to prove it. 

Laziness is a habit, a way of life for me.  I need to break it.  I'm not getting anywhere in my life by allowing myself to live like this.  I come up with all these excuses to why I do what I do or why I don't do other the things I should.  It's all laziness. 

I read self help books but do nothing they say to do.  Reading isn't going to fix anything only doing will and I don't do.

I am trapped by my habits.

My habits:  TV, daydreaming, napping, and allowing myself to wander around lost.
These are the habits I'm going to change.

I need to build a new life not only for my family but for me.

No more lazy mom,
Shel

Saturday, July 16, 2011

An Excuse Is Worse Than A Lie...

I came across this quote by Alexander Pope, "An excuse is worse than a lie..."  This is so true.

When I walk around my house and see everything that needs to be done I can always find an excuse as to why I shouldn't do it or can't do it right now.  The thing is, I make a lie for myself and get out of doing the work I need to do.  The problem is that it doesn't only hurt me but it hurts my husband and then my family.

The excuses I tell myself:

1)  I'm too tired.  The truth:  I'm not really that tired.  I maybe tired but I think it's more that I'm lazy than tired.  My bed is where I do most of my story thinking, so I'm often pulled there.  I just want to fall back into my make-believe world and not deal with my real world crap.  When I think about how hard my husband works for me I know that there is no way that I am too tired to work on house projects.

2)  I don't know where to start.  The truth:  You just start.  If I just get going everything will fall into place and something will get done.



I know that there are more and I will post them when I realize them.


Today's work list:

1)  Clean dogs room.  It stinks.
2)  Empty out boxes
3)  Vacuum out electronics
4)  Clean out fridge
5)  Store
6)  Clean kitchen

No excuses,
Shel