Friday, July 22, 2011

lost in my mess

Today my husband came home and got very upset about the messy state of our house and how I'm not doing anything about it.  To be honest, although I hate his tantrums he has a right to be upset, our house is a mess and I don't really do anymore than I have to to fix it.

I hate the fact that I'm so lazy.  I know things that I need to do to fix it but I don't do them.

I am in a habit of relaxing in the morning.  I eat breakfast and watch a show.  Then I may do the dishes and clean up a little.  After that it's time for a nap.  Then I spend time on the Internet, reading, or daydreaming.  I know this is laziness I have the butt to prove it. 

Laziness is a habit, a way of life for me.  I need to break it.  I'm not getting anywhere in my life by allowing myself to live like this.  I come up with all these excuses to why I do what I do or why I don't do other the things I should.  It's all laziness. 

I read self help books but do nothing they say to do.  Reading isn't going to fix anything only doing will and I don't do.

I am trapped by my habits.

My habits:  TV, daydreaming, napping, and allowing myself to wander around lost.
These are the habits I'm going to change.

I need to build a new life not only for my family but for me.

No more lazy mom,
Shel

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